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Excitement can be just as paralysing as fear. Actions are delayed by the inherent sense of an impending, perhaps not necessarily even fully known, event. It's the constant worry that taking a course of action might, in actuality, tamper with an otherwise ideal outcome one couldn't fathom just moments prior. "I'll be a new person soon," I've been thinking to myself lately. "Well, the same person, but better," I amend, automatically restructuring my thought-statements. I wish to implement automatic restructuring so seamlessly into my life that it appears from afar, even to myself, that I've always practiced the activity and always will.